(Wednesday, September 20, 2006/10:27 PM)
Victory by Failure
Staring at the dark night sky,I hear fireworks, but don't see the light.These noises don't seem to bring much sight,But I know, somewhere else, they shine so bright.To me I might not see a thing,But somewhere else, its so wonderful you can't even blink.As I look back up into that starless night,I thought and I finally knew what was right.I came and I left and a lesson I learnt,A painful one maybe but still doesn't hurt.As much as the sorrow I got looking at her,Because when I did my mind went in a blur.But the battle's not over yet, it's just begun,I know I can lead a normal life and have fun.There's so many people out there worse than me,So why was it all this time I couldn't see?I bottled my pain, and I drowned in my sorrow,I pitied myself for being just such an asshole.I just look up the sky and somehow I can see,I can see her looking up the same sky as me.A sky so starless and full of fireworks that aren't there,Then suddenly it hit me, I saw all the tears.In that beautiful night sky, there were tears I could see,And suddenly I realised that the rainbow was me.Then I knew what I had to do, I had to move on,Not just sit there, cry, and let everything go wrong.I had to move on, and I had to let go,I had to continue, and let it be so.Apologies don't work anymore, they don't work for me,I've tried countless times before the truth I see.That some things just can't be repaired or just fixed right away,And because they can't, you put your life in dismay.I've learnt not to give up, yet still move along.I've learnt that life's just not about all the wrongs.In moving on I have found my new way,Yet still can remember all the things that she's said.I've learnt that you never get victory after victory,And if you pursue it, you'll end up in history.Sometimes in life we have to just let it go,Just let it go and let it all just be so.But victory after failure I have yet to see,Most people don't believe in that, but that's not me.I believe and trust in everything that I do.I used to ask her to believe, I pursued.And found out that I ended up in dark history,And I learnt that you never get victory after victory.Sometimes I looked up the sky and asked "why",Why did these happen to me at this time?Then I learnt that we don't ask "why" or "what do i do",Instead we just let it go, I hope it's true.So why have I wasted so much of your time?Preaching about nothing at all but my life?Because if someone does something dumb someone else is bound to do it,And I thought I must as well share how to avoid it, and not sit.And regret that one dumb thing you've done, just like me,Stupid things happen to people, don't you see?So victory by failure, and failure by victory,Either was, it just seems like this'll end up in history.But as long as you believe in what you do,Whatever you aim for will come ever so true.But what if I am wrong, you say,I don't do long stuff for nothing, leave it this way.As I look back up into that starless night, I thought and I finally knew what was right. In that beautiful night sky, there were tears I could see, And suddenly I realised that the rainbow was me.